How the soul reveals its script.........

Dreams as they define them, are divine spaces where the soul can enter into a dialogue with our subconscious. Some of us remember our dreams, some don’t; some ponder over them while some don’t. Many people believe we can understand patterns in our life, or even the soul path if we keep a watch on our dreams.Many saints and mystics have reported to have had dreams that were like prophecies from the divine, which they followed blindly and led inspired lives.

Strangely so, I too had a series of three consecutive dreams about five months ago that left me intrigued. They were so lucid that I can claim to remember most of the finer details in my wake up time. As was duly told by two of my dear friends, ( it would be better to call them my soul friends) I noted down every detail of those dreams on my laptop. Though we could decipher some bits and pieces of them at that time, most of those dreams still remained a mystery. I kept the jigsaw pieces aside, in deep anticipation that some day I would put the puzzle together. Life carried on and those dreams were locked in my laptop pages. It was after four months that I was put in a situation, that I could very well baptised as the Divine chaos in the work area of my life. I was in turmoil, where nothing seem to go right, and my career seem to be on a crossroad where I was forced to ask my deity “Now what?” I surrendered to him, leaving the choice of saving me, or showing me the path to tread on from here onwards. Nothing seem to open up for me, and I was like a soup in a couldron, without any hope of being served. 

As they always say, the divine has his own way of communicating when we are ready to hear, I too got messages in very   inconspicuous ways. Something within told me to pick up a particular book and start reading, and I would get some answers. I resisted for a few days, and then just got the urge to pick that book up. And once I did, within a couple of days, I received a cryptic message from a friend’s cellphone, which when decoded gave me the answer. The message, which was actually not even typed by my friend, was sent from the divine, which actually nudged us to go back to the sequel of dreams a few months back. Strangely so, when we connected the dots, the whole plan unfolded in front of us, crystal clear as though my soul had already communicated with the divinity of the universe and scripted it for me to act upon. As I sat down, bewildered at what my friend and I had just decoded, I realized in reminiscence that I was actually getting messages in the form of symbols, visions as well as through suggestive words spoken around by friends and family which did not make any sense earlier. But now they seem to be the missing pieces of the puzzle that I could easily connect with, now. 

I would hear a bird chirp near my window every time a symbol or vision appeared as though someone out there was validating the divine communion between the universe and my soul. At that time, I was just aware of such coincidences, little did I know what was behind them. What today I can say is that it is important to stay connected within and be sensitive towards signs, symbols and messages outside. You never know when the soul unfolds the script, and how!

As they say, “Na jaane kis roop mein Narayan Mil jaayein.”

This divine communication has left me eternally grateful to my guides, my soul and my soul friends to have decoded this entire mystery called the purpose of my life for me!! 

May I walk on the purpose and make this incarnation worthwhile is what I now pray for! 

Abandonment: A block in Self Empowerment

Abandonment according to me, is nothing else but a reflection of a deep rooted feeling that, ‘I don’t matter to myself’. 

In our daily life we usually attach ourselves to our relationships, situations and our worldly possessions, thus giving our loved ones the power to  control how we feel. Because we attach our happiness and well being with the people who we love, then their words and actions can cause heart ache and give us pain. This in fact makes a very vicious circle when we forget ourselves and our feelings in the process, trying to be super heroes and living up to the expectations of others. One problem arises when unknowingly we embark on a journey wherein we forget ourselves in the process. It wasn’t too long ago when I was also treading the same path, and kept walking on a journey of people pleasing. Little did I realise that I was abandoning myself in the process. And then when people whom I loved and cared for did not give a desired response and overlooked me, I would fall into a victim zone. This led to a series of heart breaks and I felt like a fragmented person, with pieces of my broken heart scattered all around. I started storing a lot of emotional trauma and pain. 

Then when I started my inner journey I realized that it was no one else but me, who had abandoned myself. I had abandoned my inner child long ago, in my early childhood years and that wounded child was now the auto pilot, driving my life. The unhealed scars of abandonment by my parents in the early years of my life and similar abandonment stories that I was carrying in my cellular memory from previous lifetimes, were active. 

Every small issue that gave the slightest feeling of abandonment became a trigger and the wounded child would take over the response. It was only when I healed my wounded inner child and started reparenting it, I could support myself in threatening situations, much like how a parent supports the child. Over a period of time, ‘I finally mattered to myself’.       And then the empowerment journey began. Visiting my past lives helped in clearing the feeling of abandonment from my cellular memory and soothing my inner child helped in healing the scars of abandonment from my childhood. 
Today
I no longer cry when you hurt me, abandon me, or abuse me. 
Today I'm ready to learn my lessons when hurt; love myself when abandoned; and live life to the fullest when abused. 
Today I parent my Inner child and stand by it, holding hands and wiping tears, for a better tomorrow!

The Mesh of Life!

I perceive life as a beautiful net with several knots that need to be opened. 

Cutting the knots is very easy but I discovered the key to personal growth, when I started opening each knot without resentment or passing judgements on the nature of the knots or their arrangement on the net. 

It is important that we open each knot at a time, with patience and move forth. 

The easiest however is to leave the net at any point. However, I would call myself  a coward making that choice, and running away from my karmas...

So keep moving with long strides......

I walk with faith!

I walk with long strides and know not where my feet take me. 

I allow my life to flow with the tide, 

Like a leaf blown in the wind, Your love sweeps me away. 

I blindly hold your hand and walk.........

With a knowing that you are holding me at every stage of my journey, 

I walk with long strides and tread an unknown journey, holding your hand. 

Take me to your divine land where there are no boundaries between love and ego. 

As I walk with long strides to unravel what destiny has in store for me.